No March madness here…

Hey something is growing!

Hey something is growing!

A couple of weeks ago I was very upset about the cold and snow of this winter. I whined a little bit but marched on…Now as the middle of March approaches and I can see much of the ground and buds on the trees, I’m feeling happier. I’m pretty sure that the increased sunshine is helping.

I can dream, can't I?

I can dream, can’t I?

Now, I hope to use the extra daylight to get more done! I am not taking the time that I have on this earth for granted. Currently much of the world is consumed with a number of major tragedies that are in the news- including a plane that seems to have disappeared from the sky. Unfortunately, there are many people in pain because of these tragedies and ultimately we will find that humans have created them all.

What time is it?

What time is it?

I haven’t lost hope though, and neither should you. Look to the future, find strength in your faith, and then do something positive. March is national Women’s month so I’ll leave you with an inspiring quote from an interesting woman:

Since you get more joy out of giving joy to others, you should put a good deal of thought into the happiness that you are able to give.”
  – Eleanor Roosevelt

Her words are part of my plan so I’m not mad, I’m determined!

Kim

 

 

 

 

I’m trying to hold on but Spring better get here fast!

 

Yes it's cold. Deal with it!

Yes it’s cold. Deal with it!

A couple of weeks ago I felt warm, fuzzy, and full of love.

Valentine’s Day was a great opportunity to think about the people, places, and things that I  love. Sure it was snowing again but this is New England so that is to be expected. Well guess what? My disposition, much like the weather, has changed for the worse.

Saturday is the first day of March and I have to say that I am sick of this weather. I am annoyed, fed up, done with the snow. Unfortunately, the snow is not done with me. I believe that we are expecting another storm in two days. I was listening to internet radio in Chicago, Illinois and they will have it worse. That is no solace to me and makes me feel bad for them.

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I find myself wondering what happened to the kid that enjoyed snow and the young adult who thought that snow was so romantic? Oh, I know where she went…hey she’s older and wiser and having a harder time shoveling all of the snow!

So welcome to my world and indulge me in my negativity just this once. When Spring comes I will be very happy. March, 20, 2014- I am counting the days….

Kim

Wake me when it's over!

Wake me when it’s over!

 

Thinking about love? Always!

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Yes, it is that time of year again when we all think about love. For some of us there is much happiness, for others there may be sadness and pain.

I am on the side of happiness. I have had plenty of emotional pain in my life. I understand how that pain can be exacerbated during the week of Valentine’s Day. I remember the games and one-upsmenship that used to be played in my office: who got flowers, who’s flowers came first, who’s dating, etc. I finally got wise and understood that our commercial culture pushes those ideas so that we will buy things to make us feel better. Now I’m all about buying things if you can afford them and want to, but I don’t think that “things” are proof of love.       90734

Once I realized that I can choose to control how I feel about this or any other holiday, I realized that I can also choose to enjoy or be upset. I choose happiness. First of all, I believe that I am loved by God. Secondly, I love God. Lastly, but no less important, I choose to love many people and I am loved by them!

So Valentine’s Day does not have to be about romantic love alone it can be about love. My God, my family and friends, my cats, birds, turtle, flowers, creativity, etc. There is much for me to love. Am I thinking about love? Always!

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A New year with many possibilities…

 

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Today I have the luxury of sitting in my warm house during a snow storm. The electricity is still on and the internet is paid for and working. My life has not always been this cozy but I learned very early in life that if you make it through the night a new day offers positive change and opportunity. I am alive and excited about the possibilities in my future. I am praying the same for you…Happy New Year!

Kim

 

 

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I hope that you are feeling the love…

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Wow! I can’t believe that the end of the year will occur in just a few weeks. It is December and both my birthday and Christmas are coming. My birthday is a reminder to me that I am alive and that for me,  living is the best gift of all! Christmas is also very important to me. Fortunately, this works in my favor since it is nearly impossible to avoid Christmas religiously or secularly in America.

Old Church in South Natick, MA I am a person of faith so attending church and celebrating the birth of Christ  is a fulfilling experience and comfort to me.  I also enjoy the secular aspects of Christmas- giving brings me much joy and Christmas lights in this dark time of winter are both practical and fun.

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I understand that my feelings may not resonate with those who are having a hard time during this time of year. They may be lonely, sick,or  feeling down. This world gives us plenty of reasons to feel unhappy. I acknowledge those feelings and admit to wrestling with them on occasion- they are real.

However, I want you to know that whatever you are going through  I am thinking about you especially at this time of year and I hope that you are feeling the love that I have for you…

Kim

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I’m back and I missed you!

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What a year this has been and I am grateful for it!

I have spent a lot of time this year marveling in simple things. After having spent so much of my adult life attending to others due to their needs or my own, I have slowed down with purpose.

Several years ago I had breast cancer. After my diagnosis, my family and friends and  I dealt with it as best we could. We learned what we could about the disease, we prayed and I took advantage of the medical miracles available to me.

I was very seriously ill and initially, very scared to die. I had surgery and chemotherapy and lost my hair. Nausea was a constant but I wasn’t like many of my breast cancer sisters who lose their appetite- I was hungry- a lot; but most food tasted awful and metallic. Non of this stopped me from eating it only postponed when I could eat. Surprisingly I did not gain weight during  treatment. My husband used to tell me that maybe that helped me to survive. I wasn’t skeletal and my body had calories to sustain it while it did battle for me against the cancer.                                                  DSC_8748_

Well this year is my eighth year of survival and I will tell you what I have learned: I learned that bad things happen to everyone including me but not especially me. I also learned that I fear how I am going to die but accept that I am going to die at some point- and so are you! I have also learned that my faith life is essential to me and an essential part of me. I didn’t become super human or super special because I had a brush with death but I am super appreciative that I am here today.

I spent this spring and summer working and playing hard. This fall I am slowing down, thinking about life, thanking God and thinking about you. I’m back and I missed you. Let’s get reacquainted!

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C-22 Film processing

Recently a friend asked me to develop (and scan and print, if successful) a roll of Kodacolor-X from her Brownie Reflex camera. This film uses the C-22 process, which is the precessor to the current C-41 process. Upon researching more about the process, I learned that films using C-22 were discontinued in 1977 in favor of the current C-41 process. The next challenge was to find a recipe for C-22. On the Internet I was not able to find a recipe. Then I remembered and old book of an English photography society from 1974. In it I found a recipe for C-22.

127 Film lying in front of an adjustable Paterson plastic reel

127 Film lying in front of an adjustable Paterson plastic reel

Now I could finally start to analyze the recipe and plan its execution. C-22 uses CD-3 color developer, which is the same developer used for current slide film in the E-6 process. The color process C-41 used for current films uses CD-4. The main difference between C-22 and C-41 is that C-41 is performed at 37 °C (100 °F), whereas C-22 needs to be processed at 22 °C (75 °F). The composition of all solutions and process times can be found in the PDF file.

My friend’s roll of film came from a Brownie Reflex camera. While the film format at first appeared to be standard 120 medium format film, this was not true. The Brownie Reflex camera uses 127 film, which typically has a negative area of 4 x 4 cm.

127 Film is one size in from medium format film

127 Film is one size in from medium format film

Packaging of 127 film is very similar to current 120 medium format film in that the film is attached to paper backing. After removing the film from the paper backing I was able to load it onto a Paterson plastic reel, because the reel height is adjustable to different film formats.

Rest of the paper backing after the film has been transferred onto the reel

Rest of the paper backing after the film has been transferred onto the reel

After loading of the film was completed, I could start the development process.

The first step was 14 min of color developer, followed by a stop bath and hardener step. The rest of the process is very similar to current color processes, bleach and fixer to complete the process. Because the material is processed essentially at room temperature, these last two steps take longer than their current counterparts in C-41 and E6 processes, which are processed at 37 °C (100 °F).

All five solutions lined up for processing of C-22: Color Developer, Stop bath, Hardener, Bleach, and Fixer

All five solutions lined up for processing of C-22: Color Developer, Stop bath, Hardener, Bleach, and Fixer

After I could finally inspect my friend’s film, I noticed that the markings on the edge had developed and were visible. Unfortunately only very faint images were visible at the beginning of the film.

Stopwatch and thermometer set up for processing of C-22 film

Stopwatch and thermometer set up for processing of C-22 film

Kodacolor-X was introduced in 1963 and discontinued in 1974. This means that the unprocessed film had been sitting in the camera for 40-50 years. Kodacolor-X had a sensitivity of ISO 64-80. The shutter speed for the Brownie Reflex camera my friend used could have been one of three settings: B, 1/30, or I (“instantaneous”). Considering that films were only available with such low sensitivity at that time, I think that the reason for the faint images may not mainly be the age of the film, but that the images were underexposed. Further evidence for this hypothesis is that markings on the edge of the film developed well. If the developing process was to be at fault, markings on the edge would not be readable.

C-22 film processing during the bleach step

C-22 film processing during the bleach step

In one frame I could make out the top of trees. Films at this time did not have the latitude of films we have today. Our modern film emulsions have a more sensitive layer on top, followed by a layer of lower sensitivity. Film emulsions back in the day when the C-22 process was current did not have the wide latitude we are used to with our materials today.

While I was not able to get my friend’s photos from this roll due to underexposure, I enjoyed working with this roll of film that has been sitting in the camera for several decades. I was pleasantly surprised to see the markings on the edge of the film developed in the end, because I had no idea how and if 50 year old film would turn out.

A Storm

A couple of days ago my family went to a restaurant at Quincy Shore Drive for dinner. From this location one can see the skyline of Boston.

That evening a rainstorm was brewing over the ocean and we got to see it just before it started to rain.01

This experience taught me once again that there a beautiful places everywhere and one needs to be able to access them easily to enjoy special moments such as this.

Thanks for reading!

Lars

Rainbows…

A couple of weeks ago while we were waiting for hot summer temperatures to arrive, we had a lot of heavy rain which caused flooding in some areas.

One evening after the rain just stopped, we saw a beautiful rainbow at the end of our street just outside of our house. The sun was also about to set at the same time. We had perfect conditions for a beautiful rainbow.

The challenge was for me to find a spot for a nice photo, knowing that rainbows vanish very quickly. My first instinct was to get some photos right outside our house. After I got the first couple of shots I could be more deliberate about finding a better setting for the rainbow. I found it across from our house in a school yard, which provided a beautiful backdrop to the rainbow.

While I had quickly grabbed a wide-angle lens, an extreme wide-angle lens would be needed to cover a full rainbow. So I decided to stitch several photos together instead, which worked really well.

Here are a couple of examples:5 4 3 1 2

Something old, something new, something borrowed- now I’m blue…

tiny visitor

tiny visitor

I know that it has been a while since I have written anything here. I have been busy with any number of projects but that is no excuse. I write in this space because an issue is of interest to me or because something has happened and there is no one near to talk to me about it and writing allows me to get ideas out. I don’t know who reads our blog or looks at the photos or jewelry unless they drop me a note or purchase something.

I keep writing because I hope that by doing so, I will learn more about myself  or perhaps the story that I share will add something of value to your life. It happens to me all the time when I read other people’s web sites. I learn something or laugh or smile because of what they shared. I hope that I have that same impact when someone sees our site. With that long introduction, here is another story that you may be able to relate to…

A few days ago a cute kid was walking by my house carrying a cat that was too big for her to be carrying. I asked her where she found it and she said that she found it down the street in a park (the park is about five blocks from my house.)  She also said that she was taking it home to be with her other cat. This cat was beautiful. He was a very dark gray with deep orange eyes. The girl and I exchanged a few more words and she headed off happily squeezing the cat and enjoying herself. I later told my husband that the cat would probably end up walking itself back home to the park because who could take all that squeezing!

The next day as I cleaned my front yard I thought I heard a meow but I didn’t see a cat. I admit that I am obsessed with all things kitty like and I can’t even tell you how much I love Tigers but I was sure that I was not imagining the meow. I scanned the yard and made eye contact with the cat from the day before! He ran to me and rubbed my legs. He had me at “meow.”   I fed him!

The details of this story go on for three more days so let me give you an abridged version: The kid came over everyday looking for the cat, carrying it around, bringing it food and basically “loving” it to death. He started running away when he saw her coming.
I spoke to her about it a number of times and could not convince her to leave him alone until the third day he was in the yard.

My husband and I came home late in the evening from an after work dinner. The cat that I had begun to call Smokey was sitting on my front porch in a position that was weird even for a cat. He didn’t get up when we approached the step but he meowed and stretched out his head to be scratched. We checked him out and he behaved as though his rear right leg was hurt. After a brief discussion, my husband and I put him in a box with a blanket he had slept on and took him to the Massachusetts Society for the Prevention of Cruelty for Animals.

I went through a number of emotions as all of this happened. At first I was angry at the child because I was pretty sure that she was the one that hurt him. Next, I was upset with myself for engaging with this cat because I know that if you risk liking or loving someone you also risk being hurt. Listen, I do not live for pain but I understand its importance in life- balance. I try to avoid emotional pain but I accept it because it proves to me that I am alive and able to like and love.

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Don’t worry, I got over being mad at the kid right after I realized that the cat had a much better chance of getting a “forever” home as a guest of that shelter than running around feral in my neighborhood. I also realized that I would never have taken him to the shelter if he wasn’t hurt.

I cried my eyes out that night and when I saw the kid a few days later, I explained that the cat was hurt and that I gave him away so he could have a good home. She said that that was sad and that she was sad and I told her that I understand completely and I do. Now that I am on the other side of this situation I realize that it turned out best for all involved. It is a pain I can live with.

Kim

two former "guests"

two former “guests”