Feelings…

 

The weather was wonderful. It was sunny and in the seventies  most of the time and here it was early April. My husband was home sick and I ran out to the bank. Unfortunately, I left my wallet home. Fortunately I had the check and deposit slip with me. I went to the teller that I visit most often and was able to deposit the check without a problem. Since I didn’t have identification with me, I quickly went back home.

I looked in on with my sick husband and told him that he should spend 10 minutes out in the sun. The warm sun and bright sky would make anyone feel a little better. I went out first onto our deck and proceeded into our garage. When I returned, I noticed one of our outdoor cats lying next to a planter. That’s an odd thing for this cat to do because she is deaf and usually does not lie out in the open. She usually sleeps in a bed that we made for her or up on a concrete wall that borders our yard. By now I’m sure you know where I am going with this- she had died.

Well, I handled the situation the only way I know how- I felt it. I cried as though I lost someone I love because I had. Despite being sick, my poor husband consoled me and helped me to bury the cat. I prayed and thanked God for letting me love that cat.

It’s ironic, I never touched her but I watched over her for a couple of years and I fed her. She thanked me by hissing on occasion ( I told you earlier the she was deaf) and lying around where I could see her and take pleasure in that. Her final gift was to bring her last set of kittens into my back yard last year. I saw that as a sign of trust. She trusted me to give them a hand out and to not hurt them. Her trust was well placed…

So I  learned another great lesson in life. You don’t have to physically touch to love and what a gift to be touched by love. I feel good about that…

Warm and happy

What is it about the warm rays of the sun that make you smile? I find that even when the weather is cold, the warm rays of the sun make me smile. Believe me, I have many things to be concerned about in life right now but I appreciate any opportunity to smile.

This winter was cold but relatively dry and we had very little snow. I live in an old house and it gets quite cold in the winter. I have turned up the heat (very expensive) more often than I like in order to stay warm inside but a sun beam coming through the window makes me happy. I anticipate the good times that come with warm weather.

Over the past few days our New England weather has been incredible. Most of last week consisted of sunny days with temperatures in the 7o’s and even low 80’s! Plants are blossoming earlier than ever, birds are chirping and pairing up and I am thinking about my future garden.

Today I found some hyacinths growing up from under a pile of mulch behind my garage. I bought the plants last year and they were labeled as annuals. When they expired, I took them out of the pot and threw them in the mulch pile. Imagine my surprise when my husband and I were working in the back yard, looked behind the garage,  and two beautiful purple hyacinths were sticking out of the mulch pile! When I thought that things couldn’t get any better, my husband noticed one of the neighborhood cats sleeping in a pile of leaves near the flowers. Come on, you know that image makes you smile…

I’m sorry that I neglected my posts for a while but I’m back along with the spring. I will continue to muse and amuse if I can. Right now I’m feeling warm and happy and I hope that you are too.

Bye!

A Ski Adventure

Recently I got to go on a skiing adventure with my friend Mike in the White Mountains in New Hampshire.

Our adventure started at the Pinkham Notch Visitor Center below Mt. Washington (Rt. 16). It took us a while to put all our equipment and food into two large backpacks. Starting at about 2000 ft altitude the walk at first seemed not to be too difficult, and it actually helped that the trail was covered with snow, which made walking on it a lot easier than walking over rocks like in the other seasons. The further up we went, the more difficult it became because of the altitude. The scenery also became really beautiful.


For the first time this season, it really felt like winter. So far this season, we almost had no snow at all, and it was just so beautiful to see a snow covered forest floor.

We walked further up, intersecting with other trails to Lions Head and Huntington Ravine.


The further up we went, the more beautiful it looked around us. After 2-3 hours we finally reached the Hermit Lake Shelters, the end of our hike (and beginning of the skiing adventure). We now had reached almost 4000 ft altitude.

After a lunch break with hot soup, peanut butter & jelly sandwiches, and hot chocolate it was time to change our footwear over into snow boarding/ski boots. It was difficult to stay warm, because there was an ice-cold wind blowing. Water in our bottles started to freeze.

After changing over, we were read to ski/ride down the John Sherburne Ski Trail. This trail was cut by the Civilian Conservation Corps (CCC) in the 1930’s. It leads down to the Pinkham Notch Visitor Center.


The Google Earth map shows Mt. Washington to the left, and our GPS trail. Rt. 16 is to the right. The altitude profile shows the start at just below 4000 ft and the bottom at just about 2000 ft.


The trail was wider than we expected and overall was not too steep. The length of the trail is about 2.3 miles. While it took us about 2.5 hours to hike up the mountain, it took about 15 min to ski down.


Here is my friend Mike near the top of the trail. The conditions were perfect, because there were about 4 in of new snow from the previous night. Because it was getting late in the afternoon when we descended, the sky had turned already colorful. What a great hike and trail!

We enjoyed this adventure a lot. Needless to say, we slept really well that night. Thank you, Mike for this great adventure.

Thanks for reading,

Lars

Excuses, excuses…

I has happened once again, camera manufacturers have announced new models at a Japanese trade show about two weeks ago (beginning of February 2012). This time it seems like the bar has been pushed very high by Nikon with the announcement of a 36 megapixel DSLR camera for about $3000. While I applaud Nikon for producing such a superb product, people are already discussing positive and negative implications. There are some that can’t wait to get their hands on this camera, whereas others are more skeptical and concerned that it may be difficult to create a computer infrastructure that can support 60-70 MB raw files.

It is great to see how far camera technology has come in the last 10-15 years, we can now take decent photos at high ISO, take bursts of images without any delays, and have enough resolution for billboard-size photos from even inexpensive lower resolution models.

The danger of new equipment is (and that is why I have named the post as such) that the lack of using the latest equipment may serve as an excuse for us why we can’t do today photographically what we should be doing.


It is so easy to get lost in the promises of manufacturers that the newly announced camera will guarantee the breakthrough we have been waiting for. And so we pre-order the new camera, hoping that it will be available for our summer trip, because then we can finally do “real” photography.

The issue I have with this approach is that by arguing that we can only do “real” work with our new equipment, we should follow what we say and discard our old work to this point, because we just claimed that it was not good, because of outdated equipment. I always like to check in photo magazines how many photos were taken with “outdated” equipment. My impression is that it is probably around 90%. It is more the exception that somebody uses the latest equipment.


If we spend all our dispensable income on new equipment, we won’t have enough money left to actually travel, or worse, we may be afraid to take the expensive camera on a trip. This would be a pity.

A long time ago, I learned that nobody can look at a photograph and determine what equipment was used to make it. I once ran a test with some friends. I had one print made from a 35 mm film scan, the other was from a digital camera file. Everybody guessed wrong, because the film scan image had higher contrast, whereas the digital camera print had less contrast. People assumed that the higher contrast photo must have come from a digital camera, because they had become conditioned that the digital camera file must look better.


Since it is difficult to discern what equipment was used, how should the photographer select equipment, and what is its role? Well, as photographers we know the limitations of our equipment. For my film cameras, I know which shutter speed I can comfortably hold by hand, and I know what film I have available. For the digital cameras, I know what the ISO limitations are for each camera, what I feel comfortable using. This ranges anywhere from ISO 320 to 6400 (max) for my current cameras.

Camera manufacturers have trained us to demand higher resolution, which is great to have, although for web use only, most modern cameras are overkill. The pitfall of higher resolution cameras is that we will need to improve our whole computer infrastructure to deal with the larger files. We should consider all these requirements before we make a decision into buying new equipment. I like to make a list with the features I would gain from a piece of equipment and then decide if it is worth the price, including secondary requirements such as updated computer hardware, additional hard drives for storage etc.


Maybe a better choice would be instead to purchase a new lens in a range that gives us a new perspective. Or some studio lighting equipment. Or a new printer. Or a plane ticket to the place we always wanted to go. Maybe that would be a better use of our money than another new DSLR or mirrorless body that gets old fast.

The photos I used here in this post are from South Natick, MA. I was on my way to a photography exhibition. I stopped when I saw the interesting church and library building. After I stopped I saw the Charles River dam below. While I had never been to this place before, I really enjoyed the sunset and clouds over the river, as well as the history at this place. It made me become more interested in the Charles River, a very winding river that merges into the Atlantic Ocean in Boston.

I was using an old Kodak DSLR from about 2003/2004 for the photos. Could you tell from looking at them? My guess is probably not. I knew the limitations of the equipment (no ISO higher than 320, very slow, etc.), but it didn’t bother me, because I used what I had available. Since I was not afraid of this camera getting stolen, it was riding with me in the trunk all day long until I needed it.

What my goal with this post is to encourage you to use what you have available and to remember that you make great photographs today. No need to wait for new equipment that will fall short. Photography is about life, about our emotions, about what we want to convey, about our feelings for a subject matter. The rest is distractions.

Recording artists did not wait for better recording equipment to become available, they performed their songs when the time was right. Today we can still enjoy recordings from several decades ago. The same is true for us, we don’t know what will be possible in a couple of decades from now. Maybe people will still enjoy printed photographs, maybe not. In the end it doesn’t matter for us today, because we need to create our artwork for today, not for the future.

What matters is that we can produce our artwork anywhere we go, and expensive new equipment may be limiting, because we may not take it in the mud, or in places where some water may sprinkle on it, which would be too unfortunate.

Thanks for reading,

Lars

The power of love

 

 

I hope that you feel loved today. Valentines Day is one of those days when commercialism can take over and you feel that you don’t measure up or that you are not included. Maybe you have a date, maybe you don’t, maybe you are getting flowers, maybe you are not. Those are things that can be fun but don’t make your decision to feel loved today be based on them.

 

 

I learned a long time ago that in order to be happy I need to own the power that I have, use it, and then live with the decisions that I make. For me, I feel less of a victim to the negative aspects of life that I cannot control. I have said it before, I choose to love- it is a choice that I can make no matter what is going on in the world, my world. I don’t value romantic love over familial, religious, or other types of love. I realize that there are different types of love and that I can have them all or not; to me, that is incredibly fulfilling and powerful.

 

 

 

 

Valentines Day is important to me because it reminds me of the people and things that I love.  The bonus is that I mostly get loved back. I’m sending some of that love out to you.  Happy Valentines Day!

 Girly girl bear and friend

More about photographic vision

Yesterday I wrote about my attempts to find something visually inspiring to photograph during an overcast morning in an area that is very familiar to me.

When we travel to places we have not been before, we find lots of things to photograph, whereas when we walk through our neighborhood we have a really hard time finding anything that is visually inspiring. Yet we are more prone to take cliché images in the places we travel to, because we look at other people’s work before we get there. Because we don’t live at the places we travel to, we can only get some superficial photos.

The place we live in we are intimately familiar with. Here is where we know the best places and the best light etc.

A lot of beginning landscape photographers are taught that the only “real” places for landscape photography are in the Southwest, and when one looks at photography magazines, this impression seems to be in line with this notion as well. Don’t get me wrong, it is a wonderful experience to travel and photograph in places such as Grand Canyon, Monument Valley, Zion, Bryce, Canyonlands, Antelope Canyon, Arches, Yellowstone, Yosemite,… but don’t expect to make your best photographs there. Instead become familiar with the State Park near your home.

A place I have become familiar over the years is a (paved) trail from a former railway that connects the towns of Arlington-Lexington-Bedford (Massachusetts), the Minutemen Bike Trail. Every week I have the opportunity to walk on the trail. Unlike yesterday, this morning it was sunny.

The sun was gorgeous, as seen here through the building of the former train station in Lexington, MA.

I dug out my old digital SLR I got 6 years ago, because I like to try out different gear and different media (digital vs. film) for a change in pace. After processing Raw files from the old camera I was amazed how great the photos looked. I have definitely seen a large improvement in raw processor software from ~2003 when I first started using raw files. (Sorry for the discourse in technology.)

In one part on a downhill slope of the trail the morning sun perfectly hit a patch of dried plants that had a wonderful glow to it.

On the final stretch of my walk was a little creek left to the road. I suddenly noticed the ripple in the sand which made me wonder when the currently more stagnant creek was carrying enough water to form these ripples.

What do you noticed in your day-to-day environment that is unusual? I hope we can take a breath of fresh air every day and see something in our environment that is different from what we are used to seeing. This will help us to stay photographically alert.

Thanks for reading,

Lars

How to stay photographically creative

This morning I went for my weekly walk from Lexington to Bedford (Massachusetts). This winter has been extremely mild. So far we had only a little bit of snow, which melted each time within a day or tow. To top it off, this morning was overcast. Usually I like to enjoy the morning sun rays shining through trees and vegetation. Being overcast today, I knew that there was nothing to photograph, or so it seemed at first.

After getting over my frustration, I started to pay more attention, and then I saw “my” photographs. What follows now is a collection of what stood out for me this morning.

First I noticed the poison ivy roots growing on a tree and their delicate structure and coloration.

Then there were these mushrooms growing on a dead tree that were really colorful.

Next I really liked the tree reflection on the pond. Being that it was overcast, the mood of this photo just works out fine.

Just when I thought I was done, I noticed a little stream that was more stagnant than a stream, and I enjoyed the reflections of trees and the subtle color of leftover leaves from the fall in it.

These dead leaves on the branches just reflected my feelings of exhaustion and monotony this morning.

The last image I wanted to share here is an abstract image. It is the beltway that runs around our city (Rt. 128/I-95). During rush hour traffic usually looks like this. I have and continue to spend countless hours in traffic (when I am not walking to work). Sometimes I notice that I experience getting into a daze when my commute becomes very slow and I notice when I emerge out of the “slow zone”. This photo represents to me this daze I am in when traffic is not moving at all.

While I usually like to make photos that are as sharp as possible, this one taught me that on occasion the best photo may be one that is out of focus.

Are the photos I shared here my best work? Certainly not, but it showed me that when I change my attitude I can see better what is around me.

Thanks for reading,

Lars

Cool places in Boston – Copley Square Public Library

During a Sunday afternoon walk through Boston’s Back Bay we decided to go inside the Public Library building (at Copley Square). We immediately enjoyed the marble stairwell and chandeliers.

Boston’s public library is one of the largest in the country.

On the second floor I liked the main reading area with its green lamps on the tables.

On the third floor we came across this beautifully ornate room. There was also an exhibit of American prints from different artists (etchings, lithographs, and woodcut prints) that we enjoyed a lot.

I was mostly impressed by the Mediterranean style court yard. The building was completed in 1895, and designed by a famous New York architecture firm.

Right now the court yard is empty, since we are technically in the middle of winter. I am sure this place will get busy once it gets warmer.

I would love to hear of beautiful public buildings in your city. We all have seen them from the outside, but may not have seen the inside.

Cold comfort

I don’t know what the weather is like where you are but here in Boston it is really cold. There is nothing unusual about cold weather in January, in Massachusetts, but it is unusual to have not suffered through a number of snowstorms by now.

Many would say, hey be happy – you don’t have to shovel, or try to maneuver your car over ice or worry about falling down into a slushy liquid mess. I am happy to avoid those negative aspects of winter but something is missing. I do believe that familiar weather patterns are just like other things that are familiar to us all, they make us comfortable because we know what is coming or what to expect.

For months now I have been posting photos of some adorable feral kittens that live in my neighborhood. They come through my yard frequently. I have never touched them but I observe them and draw pleasure from their existence. When I think they and their mother are having a hard time, I sometimes leave them food. The mom has lived in this neighborhood for at least five years and seems to be deaf. She also appears to be pretty old. Those of you who have observed or enjoyed the company of cats know that they don’t have wrinkles to tip you off to their age, but they do have a “look” that says I’m no kitten! I have never touched the mom and she hisses at me on occasion. She’s a tough kitty raising her litters on her own. I believe that I saw one of her kittens 3 years ago. I have never seen the others until now. For some reason in 2011 she let me see the last pair of kittens that she had. Note that I said “see” not “touch.”

Well, I was happy with this stand off. I knew that if I touched her or her kittens that I would be a goner. I would care too much. I would have one more thing to worry about. Guess what? It has happened anyway. What I am dealing with now is observing this family as it grows and observing more about their lives. One kitten is male and the other is female. They are now 7 or 8 months old. I expected the male to leave and look for a partner but the family has not separated yet. I sometimes see the 3 of them sleeping together in a pile of leaves.

Yesterday, on a very cold day, I observed the kittens sitting on a concrete wall near the side of my house. They both had blown up tails and were very still. I couldn’t see the mom and I tried to see what is was that had frightened them. As I continued to view them from my window, I observed a very large grey male cat on the other side of our fence looking very mean and hissing. I ran to put on a jacket, charged outside with a shovel and saw the large male and the male kitten (who is actually a good size himself) run off. They were growling and hissing as they disappeared from my view.

I could go on forever about this and I am sure that some of you already know where I am headed in this story. Let me end it this way:  I know that the cats can take care of themselves, all cats should be spayed or neutered, no I can’t own or protect every animal in the world, why didn’t I bla, bla, bla…

Listen, I am grateful to have the opportunity to love people and animals. I am happy to love these kittens from afar. The male cat will be chased away eventually, that is they way it works in the animal world. I am happy that they haven’t not be adversely effected by deep New England snows but you know what? That is cold comfort to me…

Happy to be here…

 

I don’t want to believe that the new year is here already but it is.  It’s not that I don’t look forward to the future because I do. Besides, the future is coming no matter what I think.

I guess that much like the warm sun on a summer’s day, I want to bask in the glory of good times. I have learned that no matter what is going on in my life, good or bad,that I am blessed, lucky, or what ever you choose to call it.  I am grateful to be alive to face what ever life throws towards me.

I may not win every game or get what I want or feel very cheerful but I sure am happy to be here to lose, complain and feel what I’m feeling. In my mind it is all good, even when it isn’t. 

I was enjoying the company of one of my cats the other day and observed how he arched his back and took every bit of pleasure from the rub that I gave him. He didn’t know how soon it would stop but he was going to enjoy it while it lasted.  I love to plan ahead but my cat showed me that being in the moment was just as important as thinking ahead.

During the Christmas season I was very busy and had the pleasure of seeing friends and family. I was able to have a Christmas tree, lights, and good food. I am extremely grateful for all of these things. I realize that there are many people who are suffering or are unhappy at this time of year. I think of them and pray that life will improve for them. I don’t deserve happiness more than they do, no one does. I understand that life ebbs and flows. I have been very ill, down, and unhappy. I may end up there again even though I don’t want to. Worry does not change any situation and preparation can only do so much. The good thing is that situations are not static and there is reason to hope for the best.

Happy New Year to all. It is another chance at life and another chance at contentment. I didn’t want the enjoyment I had last year to pass and of course, it did! Like the clock on New Years Eve, time moves on. I’m over it and I am happy to be here…with you.